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My Almost VBAC Journey

I should have known it was going to be an uphill battle when a pro natural birth, pro VBAC, pro woman’s body, and highly recommended midwifery here in the area told me they do not allow a VBAC (Vaginal Birth After C-Section) if the woman has had more than 1 c-section. You guessed it, I’ve had two. And so I began to pray.

 “God, you know my heart and if this is Your will let it happen, and if it’s not Your will don’t allow it to occur. But please give me the discernment to know what is from You and what is of the world.”

I spent a few days calling a few places and all of those phone calls either ended with the same response or being told that someone would have to get back to me (I never heard from anyone). I was feeling very disappointed and frustrated thinking that it should not be this difficult for a woman to have a VBAC! Anyways, I was finally recommended a midwifery associated with a local hospital whose front desk told me that yes they’d perform a VBAC despite having had the 2 c-sections. Yess! Winning! Not so fast … Fast forward to my first appointment and the midwife let me know that they would soon be switching to another hospital who specifically requested that no patients with 2 or more c-sections be allowed to have a VBAC. Sigh. I sat there on the patient bed with my head drooped and with very watery eyes. She must have felt compassion for me because she offered to plead my case to the doctors of the new hospital. She added that she did not think they’d approve, but that she would try. I went home and started to pray.

 “God, you know my heart and if this is Your will let it happen, and if it’s not Your will don’t allow it to occur. But please give me the discernment to know what is from You and what is of the world.”

I learned 2 years ago that what seems to be like God working in your life can sometimes be the exact opposite. Anyways, I digress.

Fast forward about 2 weeks and I get a call from the midwife letting me know (with a very surprised tone in her voice) that the doctor she spoke with said the VBAC would not be a problem! Oh I was SO happy! I called my husband and my best friend to tell them the good news. I took it to social media to demonstrate the power of prayer! Again, not so fast … Fast forward about 6 weeks and I get another phone call from the midwife to tell me that the whole team of doctors with the new hospital had come together to discuss the new patients and that two of the doctors (none of which she had spoken to originally) did not feel comfortable with performing a VBAC given the prior 2 c-sections.

What a punch to the stomach.

I felt like the rug had been pulled right under me.

I took some time to ask her some questions for clarification making it a point to not get upset with her for not having been more thorough – confirming that the approval of only one doctor would suffice. Proverbs 29:11 tells us that a fool gives full vent to his spirit, but a wise man quietly holds it back. She went on to recommend an OB/GYN office that she thought was worth reaching out.  Again I prayed as I had been praying …

 “God, you know my heart and if this is Your will let it happen, and if it’s not Your will don’t allow it to occur. But please give me the discernment to know what is from You and what is of the world.”

Nothing in me was telling me to give up yet. Joshua 1:9 tells us to be strong and courageous, to not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. So I reached out and was able to make an appointment. Fast forward and again and the same thing happened. It’s a practice of 4 doctors and the first one I saw was completely okay with a VBAC, but when it was my turn to see another doctor in the same office (all OB patients rotate among the 4 doctors) she was not as comfortable about it and decided she would have to bring it up in their next meeting which wouldn’t be for another month or so. 2 weeks ago I was told that their decision was that a scheduled repeat c-section would be the safest option due to the 2 prior ones and because I had also had an abdominoplasty (tummy tuck). They don’t know how much scar tissue I could have because of these 3 surgeries and ending up in an emergency situation (meaning rushing to a last minute c-section after having attempted a vaginal birth) would not be safe.

As she said the words aloud I felt a sense of peace that I hadn’t felt before, and in those few minutes while sitting on that patient bed listening to the doctor I simply looked up and said “I am a woman of great faith in the Lord and I have prayed that it be His will and so I am at peace with your decision.” Pslam 29:11 says that the LORD gives strength to his people; the LORD blesses his people with peace. I had certainly gone in with a fight to get the VBAC approved and I praise God alone for the perseverance and strength in my heart, but in that moment when I felt at peace I knew it was the Holy Spirit answering the prayer I had been praying for almost 30 weeks of my pregnancy:

 “God, you know my heart and if this is Your will let it happen, and if it’s not Your will don’t allow it to occur. But please give me the discernment to know what is from You and what is of the world.”

I got in my car and let it all sink in. I had had numerous practices – midwiferies and OB/GYN offices – not even look at my records and tell me no due to the last minute risks that come with a vaginal birth having had 2 c-sections and I had had 2 practices totaling 8 obstetricians, who did take the time to see me and care for me,  review my records and each of them had said no as well. I thought of Proverbs 19:21 that tells us many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails. And so I prayed a different prayer this time.

“God thank You first and foremost for taking care of this baby. For keeping him healthy from the inside out, from head to toe. Lord, I trust You and the practitioners You have put in my path. Thank You for the comfort I feel right now.”

A close friend of mine said it perfectly:

“Just remember what matters most is to have that sweet little baby in your arms. Don’t let the enemy rob your joy. It will work out.”

And at almost 31 weeks pregnant holding that sweet boy is the only thing that my heart and mind is overflowing with because no matter how I deliver him I get to love him as I have my two other beautiful kids who also popped out of my belly – literally 😉

God bless.

 

 

 

 

 

7 thoughts on “My Almost VBAC Journey

    1. I did and I had a successful VBAC 🙂 Thank you for stopping by my blog post and following it. It’s very much appreciated.

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