It’s been 3 weeks since the birth of our 3rd baby and as the lack of sleep slowly catches up to me I started thinking early this morning of everything that has been a chaotic and total mess (per my standards) You see I thrive off of 3 things:
Of course there’s been very little of that, and when I’ve managed to create all 3 in the house I am completely burnt out by the time my husband comes home from work. So as it all has started to accumulate my natural tendency is to become very irritable (certainly no fun to be around!)
I also came to accept and own that my prayer life has been slowly diminishing these past few weeks. Why? Because sleep and/or creating those 3 things I just mentioned keep winning. Pick up the Bible while baby naps finally or fold and put away the laundry or homeschool or put away the toys or the dishes or vacuum and mop or make the beds or so on and so on? I assure you that one (or a few) of the latter choices keeps taking precedent over one on one time with Him. So, spiritually I’m hitting E.
Then as I glimpsed an article (again, instead of praying or reading the Bible) I saw a reference to John 10:10
“the thief (Satan) does not come except to kill, steal, and to destroy …”
I am convinced because I’ve seen it too often that he works hardest at doing all of that when it comes to two things in life: marriage and motherhood; robbing us of what should be a joyful time in our lives.
So, where does that leave me? Ready to be totally at peace with being a total slob who sleeps all day? Haha. Not even close! It leaves me right where I need to be though: on my knees looking to Jesus to refill my mind and heart with what matters: asking Him moment by moment to shift this mind and heart to embrace and learn from the beautiful chaos that is my season in life right now. Time to armor myself (Ephesians 6: 10-18) and remember that our present afflictions are small and won’t last very long (2 Corinthians 4: 17).